So still he remained that he could be imagined to have left in him no motive power whatever. The clashes of feeling in all directions confounded one another, produced a neutrality, and there was motion in none.
`Do you know her?' said Bathsheba, in a small enclosed echo, as from the interior of a cell.
`I do,' said Troy.
`Is it she?'
`It is.'
He had originally stood erect. And now, in the well-nigh congealed immobility of his frame could be discerned an incipient movement, as in the darkest night may be discerned light after a while. He was gradually sinking forwards.
The lines of his features softened, and dismay modulated to illimitable sadness. Bathsheba was regarding him from the other side, still with parted lips and distracted eyes. Capacity for intense feeling is proportionate to the general intensity of the nature, and perhaps in all F anny's suffering, much greater relatively to her strength, there never was a time when she suffered in an absolute sense what Bathsheba suffered now.
What Troy did was to sink upon his knees with an indefinable union of remorse and reverence upon his face, and, bending ever Fanny Robin, gently kissed her, as one would kiss an infant asleep to avoid awakening it.
At the sight and sound of that, to her, unendurable act, Bathsheba sprang towards him. All the strong feelings which had been scattered over her existence since she knew what feeling was, seemed gathered together into one pulsation now. The revulsion from her indignant mood a little earlier, when she had meditated upon compromised honour, forestalment, eclipse in maternity by another, was violent and entire. All that was forgotten in the ****** and still strong attachment of wife to husband. She had sighe d for her self-completeness then, and now she cried aloud against the severance of the union she had deplored. She flung her arms round Troy's neck, exclaiming wildly from the deepest deep of her heart--`Don't - don't kiss them! O, Frank, I can't bear it - I can't! I love you better than she did; kiss me too, Frank - kiss me! You will Frank, kiss me too !'
There was something so abnormal and startling in the childlike pain and simplicity of this appeal from a woman of Bathsheba's calibre and independence, that Troy, loosening her tightly clasped arms from his neck, looked at her in bewilderment. It was such an unexpected revelation of all women being alike at heart, even those so different in their accessories as Fanny and this one beside him, that Troy could hardly seem to believe her to be his proud wife Bathsheba. Fanny's own spirit seemed to be animatin g her frame. But this was the mood of a few instants only. When the momentary surprise had passed, his expression changed to a silencing imperious gaze.
`I will not kiss you!' he said, pushing her away.
Had the wife now but gone no further. Yet, perhaps, under the harrowing circumstances, to speak out was the one wrong act which can be better understood, if not forgiven in her, than the right and politic one, her rival being now but a corpse. All the fee ling she had been betrayed into showing she drew back to herself again by a strenuous effort of self-command.
`What have you to say as your reason?' she asked, her bitter voice being strangely low - quite that of another woman now.
`I have to say that I have been a bad, black-hearted man' he answered.
`And that this woman is your victim; and I not less than she.'
`Ah! don't taunt me, madam. This woman is more to me, dead as she is, than ever you were, or are, or can be. If Satan had not tempted me with that face of yours, and those cursed coquetries, I should have married her. I never had another thought till you came in my way. Would to God that I had; but it is all too late! I deserve to live in torment for this!'
He turned to Fanny then. `But never mind, darling,' he said; `in the sight of Heaven you are my very, very wife!'
At these words arose from Bathsheba's lips a long, low cry of measureless despair and indignation, such a wail of anguish as had never before been heard within those old-inhabited walls. It was the Tetelestou of her union with Troy.
`If she's - that, - what - am I?' she added, as a continuation of the same cry, and sobbing pitifully; and the rarity with her of such abandonment only made the condition more dire.
`You are nothing to me - nothing,' said Troy heartlessly. `A ceremony before a priest doesn't make a marriage. I am not morally yours.
A vehement impulse to flee from him, to run from this place, hide, and escape his words at any price, not stopping short of death itself, mastered Bathsheba now. She waited not an instant, but turned to the door and ran out.
