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"'This is the significance of the first question in the wilderness, and this is what Thou hast rejected for the sake of that ******* which Thou hast exalted above everything.Yet in this question lies hid the great secret of this world.Choosing "bread," Thou wouldst have satisfied the universal and everlasting craving of humanity- to find someone to worship.So long as man remains free he strives for nothing so incessantly and so painfully as to find someone to worship.But man seeks to worship what is established beyond dispute, so that all men would agree at once to worship it.For these pitiful creatures are concerned not only to find what one or the other can worship, but to find community of worship is the chief misery of every man individually and of all humanity from the beginning of time.For the sake of common worship they've slain each other with the sword.They have set up gods and challenged one another, "Put away your gods and come and worship ours, or we will kill you and your gods!" And so it will be to the end of the world, even when gods disappear from the earth; they will fall down before idols just the same.Thou didst know, Thou couldst not but have known, this fundamental secret of human nature, but Thou didst reject the one infallible banner which was offered Thee to make all men bow down to Thee alone- the banner of earthly bread; and Thou hast rejected it for the sake of ******* and the bread of Heaven.Behold what Thou didst further.And all again in the name of *******! I tell Thee that man is tormented by no greater anxiety than to find someone quickly to whom he can hand over that gift of ******* with which the ill-fated creature is born.But only one who can appease their conscience can take over their *******.In bread there was offered Thee an invincible banner; give bread, and man will worship thee, for nothing is more certain than bread.But if someone else gains possession of his conscience- Oh! then he will cast away Thy bread and follow after him who has ensnared his conscience.In that Thou wast right.For the secret of man's being is not only to live but to have something to live for.Without a stable conception of the object of life, man would not consent to go on living, and would rather destroy himself than remain on earth, though he had bread in abundance.That is true.But what happened? Instead of taking men's ******* from them, Thou didst make it greater than ever! Didst Thou forget that man prefers peace, and even death, to ******* of choice in the knowledge of good and evil? Nothing is more seductive for man than his ******* of conscience, but nothing is a greater cause of suffering.And behold, instead of giving a firm foundation for setting the conscience of man at rest for ever, Thou didst choose all that is exceptional, vague and enigmatic; Thou didst choose what was utterly beyond the strength of men, acting as though Thou didst not love them at all-Thou who didst come to give Thy life for them! Instead of taking possession of men's *******, Thou didst increase it, and burdened the spiritual kingdom of mankind with its sufferings for ever.Thou didst desire man's free love, that he should follow Thee freely, enticed and taken captive by Thee.In place of the rigid ancient law, man must hereafter with free heart decide for himself what is good and what is evil, having only Thy image before him as his guide.But didst Thou not know that he would at last reject even Thy image and Thy truth, if he is weighed down with the fearful burden of free choice? They will cry aloud at last that the truth is not in Thee, for they could not have been left in greater confusion and suffering than Thou hast caused, laying upon them so many cares and unanswerable problems.